I really have to be mindful not to allow my negative thoughts to take over my mood on here. I dont let that shit out irl. This is where I vent so it probably sounds like I'm always down but it's the opposite lol this is the fan club, vip, behind the music, backstage pass type of vibe. I'm like Hannah Montana...Deena Bo Beena 😁 But yea, I dump my down here so I'm cool and worry free in the real world without anyone catching active strays by me saying all this stuff out loud. Venting to another person...feels like asking a group of aunties to teach you how to play spades. Just nerve wrecking, i don't know what kind of response, am I slowing things down by venting? Am I nagging...ruminating...should I keep this to myself? What if they tell someone else and then everyone thinks I feel one way but really i was just venting...Sssooo, sssooo many crippling thoughts that stop me from opening the flood gates lmao. The plus side though, trust in me...I'm a great secret keeper for sure.
TS is not easy for me...to be optimistic today. I do realize it's definitely not impossible though...SO, without further ado...
What do I need most today?
Today, I need a clear space. I need to declutter, deep clean, and rearrange some things.
Changing my environment always resets my motivation. The more often I do it, the more consistent I am with my routine...ya girl is gonna have to move her couch on the daily 😭lmao
NO, but seriously, I love to clean. It's so relaxing...I'd rather clean than work...Funny becasue I used to really hate doing laundry...but the older I get, the more I think "well ionno i dont mind laundry now because it counts as cleaning" 🤓 lol ahhhh loophole.
Long story short, today I need to clean my space, reset and reclaim my energy in this mf.
All is well, everything is working out for my highest good and out of this situation, this so called "problem", only good will come and I am safe.
😊
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