Friday the 27th

 K, ive got another prompt:

What memories make u feel shameful?

Not many. Only one stands out immediately. I had a crush growing up that i swore was my soulmate lmao ive been an intergalctical energy reader all my life...anyway, one day i got the bright idea to write him a letter...couple months went by and i thought, imma give him the note bahaha....ewww, i dont want to tell this story but whatever. Theres only 6 of us here reading through my trauma and shortcomings lol

Aanyway, our moms were close so we were always over each others houses or going to camp, school etc together...but everything after 16 is a whirlwind of confusing flashes. Blurred laughs and moments happiness...

Im not ashamed to express myself. Im pretty straight forward. Its ok to be that way but also embarrassing sometimes lol the thing i feel shame about is...i cant even remember what i wrote. He never replied, reacted, ionno if he even ever read it. Annnd yea, last time i checked, I've been swerved like no other ever since that day. NEVER SPOKE A WORD to me ever AGAIN. Swerved with the skid marks on the ground...its cool tho. That was 20 years ago but, it still crosses mind some days. Wonder what and how hes doing. I guess...idk whybtho. Ionno that man and he probably doesnt even remember any of this and im over thinking like i love to do...but a letter? So 90s and dramatic and...embarrassing lmao

There's literal handwritten proof of my heart's revelations somewhere with someone who doesn't care...if they even kept it lmao and i gave away that artistry...For free!?

Shameful 😭

Whatever i said, i know I said it with my chest, though. Ive heard im intimidating which is odd because i always feel intimidated 🤔 I said what I said...and im hopeful it was at least nice and normal. Nothing pshycotic or too revealing 😭😭😭 Fuck it. I say, let em hang dammit. And i did...I'll never regret that part lol

💚deena