I like to write before i say my first word for the day. Literally, fresh out my sleep... the best thoughts flow after my brain's had a chance to isolate; reset...
Yall ever heard if soul ties? Ive been into that real heavy. Just trying to understand if the possibility of this theory really is...real.
Feels real but im also hyper aware of how the brain is a powerful thing. It will have you convinced that what you believe is the same reality for others, too.
Anyway, a soul tie is a strong, most times profound, connecrion or bond between two people. It usually goes beyond a friendship, not neccessarily romantic either. I mean, people have soul ties to animals/pets too...i think thats whats boggling my mind. Its giving cardi b "What was the reason!?" lmao
I wonder mostly if a soul tie is a one way street. Thats fucked up if it is but also refreshing. Imagine being (or feeling, rather) connected to a person who essentially is a stranger but something...something keeps them connected to your subconciousness...
Ive experienced this before but i usually over ride the feeling. I dont have a clear enough head to really disect my feelings in a healthy way most days. I analyze thoughts and feelings like an artist would...over critical and judgemental of myself. Although, as an artist, i understand the critiquing process is neccessary for growth lmao
I need to cut this tie. It has manifested into my dreams...i dont like that. Every attempt i make to cut it has failed and im thinking its because before i undo it, i want to know if its mutual or...ionno yall...
I just gotta know. Why do i have to understand EVERY thing. Bad habit but damn, i just feel like i know how to move forward with clarity if i know WHY something is the way it is...or does what it does. Its a natural strategy for survival with minimal combat type of thing...i guess lmao.
Let me clarify, i yearned desperatley to undo or address the tie. Im exhausted, disappointed, and just over the idea. I thought that would help untie it but the mf knot is triple-knotted like a sailor did it. Its not bad or toxic or even REAL. Its not even real. Its not real and its starting to cause an uproar in my peace. I dont know how to explain this but if you know, you really do know the angst and desperation and exhaustion i feel...just wanna address that shit head on but the other party is.....aaasgsgggghhhhhgg!
This is why....this is why i dont write a whole lot lately. Something is strangling my brain and im trying to talk to that something and beg it to let me go...but maybe its ME who tied the tie? fuuccckkkkkkk. Yea...thats probably what happened...thats crazy though. Why wold i do that to myself? The emotional torture and turmoil...maybe im off. Maybe i do have a soul tie, and not schitzophrenia, but its not with who i think it is and thats why the shits not untying?
Like what?
Im writing it away. Picking at this foresaken knot, one key stroke at a time...
Sounds good but foreal, i dont want beef with anything...a person, a spirit, a turkey...a bitch needs some healing roots and herbs. I need to balance and cleanse my spirit like a vegetarian.
Thats all i ever really needed, probably haha we'll give it a go i guess.
If ur interested in more info on soul ties, this summarizes it in lamens terms pretty well...
https://www.verywellmind.com/soul-ties-6-signs-and-how-to-break-them-7483565
-deena 💚
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