If you're reading this...
You've noticed I'm a little more present online lately. I've always had a goal of being myself and having that be "ok". I think it started as a childhood trauma of going from 15 to 30 but that feeling has since manifested into a true goal of freedom.
What does success mean to you at this stage in your life?
To me, success is being able to love what I do and support my family simultaneously.
I want to be an entrepreneur, a writer, an artist. I'm so sensitive about my shit, I overanalyze and then time passes, and my vision is stale. Any other artists out there with this disorder?
It's like sleep paralysis but maybe art paralysis?
I like to share my life, but I also value my family, my role as a wife and mother...finding balance in those things can be difficult. I like to do yoga, I want to post what i love, but creeps be creeping hard. Which is expected but those are the things that have kept me in my shell all of these years...I was trying to give very conservative, very demure.
But I'm far from either of those things.
Yes, I'm a southern lady but I was born to a real one from Mississippi and a self-taught electrician from the depths of South Carolina. I can catch a red, change your oil, and cuss you and yo mama out at the same time right before I take my cornbread out the oven...barefoot.
That's a lot for some people to take in, especially the ones who take my silence for shyness.
While I don't like attention, I don't shy away from challenges or self-expression...or fun. I wish I could sometimes...but the urge to flex overtakes my tiny 5 ft body and I grow like the hulk.
Success to me is consistency, dedication, passion...failure is success for me on occasion. Those are great times of learning and growth, other great components required for success in my book.
Success is trying again, and again, and again without the fear of "the last time" stopping you.
Now yall have a successful week out this bih, k?
💚deena
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