Today I'm alone in my office...

Not that I don't enjoy my coworker's company ( I really do) but silence is truly golden. 

I'm more of a sterling silver type of gal but gold hoops look nice on me. At least that's what Jumbo says...funny I used to refer to my husband as Jumbo on here lmao. I think I'll go back to that...he's rather private so he may appreciate the code name if he ever reads this thing anyway lol

So last night we were up talking and I realized that I have a soulmate for sure. We have routine lifestyles that are redundant to an extent but when we get those moments of genuine revelations with each other about our dreams, our desires in life, our intentions as leaders of a household, I feel so whole. I'm at peace that I said yes to the right one. He's the best thing...well even more accurate, my connection with him is the best thing. Not to sound mushy or anything but it was one of my first thoughts this morning...

But on to more gangsta shit! lol

I gotta figure out what my life is heading towards professionally. Who do I want to be? What impact do I want to have?...Do I want to impact the world, my family, myself....all tree?(that was a Birdman reference, not a typo) Ionno...I've heard it's hard to see the end goal but damn...can a bitch get a preview? So I know to turn left, turn right, walk straight ahead...SOMETHIN! Maybe I should google "How do I find my life's purpose?"...damn internet. That was sad for me to reread lmao...I'm relying on the internet to tell me what the Universe has planned for me. Yes, the Universe is greater and more powerful than fucking google...*insert highly offended and shocked gasps here* TADAAA! Secret revealed lol

Well...inadvertently, me writing on the internet has revealed a spontaneous desire of mine...

Most people "need" the internet to feel up-to-date, relevant, in-the-know. The social demand for current event knowledge retention is at an all time high now. When some shit goes down, you have no reason to be out of the loop.

Like, how do you not know what the loop is about sis!?

Well...I want a reason to be out of the loop. I want to get rid of my slight addiction to Instagram...I beat my Facebook addiction, 1 year sober. All I need is to kick this last habit. I really get on there for artistic inspiration...and to share funny shit with my homie J-Dawg. Thats such a manly nick name lmao Jessica is her name but I haven't gotten a good nick name yet...all my current nicknames that I use for her are inside jokes that I don't think yall should be privy to knowing. Best friend shit...ehn...it'll come to me. I'm great with nickname assignments. Let's call her Yella. She'd appreciate that I think. So yea...Yella and I send funny shit to each other because we're both professional and like to keep our opinions to ourselves instead of publicly commenting on shit.

But why comment at all? Right??

I love blogging...I love youtube. low key is where I like to be. Lowkey BLR (Blinker Light Refractor, remember?)

I think I'm gonna go freestlye while I eat some corn nuggets I got for the low today. People treat pregnant women similar to how one may treat a starving handicapped person. They feed you for free and want to carry everything for you. It's ok...kinda annoying sometimes but I try to count my blessings these days...

Cuz as long as I keeeeppp, my head to the SKYYYYY! I can Win!!! lol

...that's some RNS tho foreal...

xoxo

deena