Lately, I find it more relaxing that I can express myself and not promote my opinions. Just to get them out of my head is enough.
Mostly because I know the people who I talk about or have opinions about are people who would read my blog if I said, hey go read this.
Anyway:
I have a friend who I've known for a long time. I don't know why but it's almost like she still thinks I'm the same. And I'm not.
Let's be real, I'm not the same as I was 5 or 6 years ago because I've encountered some real shit since then. Having kids before I even had a credit score, living in my car, coming home with no electricity, making dinner for the girls and watching them eat because there wasn't enough for all 3 of us, psycho roomates who put a bid out on my head, hating ass coworkers that will call DCF on your ass just for some office drama...just some real shit that can't really be understood by most unless they've been through some similar shit. There are some things that I look at now through different eyes. Not neccessarily on a deeper level or anything dramatic like that but some shit just isn't funny or ok to me. Like popping up on my porch whenever your "in the area"
Hugging my man
Laying in my bed
Eating my food without asking
Visiting on week nights after 7pm especially if I'm not expecting you.
Call me picky but I'm very particular about my home and my schedule during the week because a bitch needs some sleep, some TLC, some family time. I don't see my family whenever I please...sometimes I have to make time for them and when I am around them, no one is invited. I want to relish on inside jokes and reminiscing with whole-hearted laughter. Not awkward catch-ups at my dinner table in front of my kids and my guy...we cant have girl talk HERE. The hell? I'd much rather you call me for those sorts of conversations.
And often times, I feel as though I'm the friend no one calls until all their other friends have dropped them. Don't do me like that. That is most definitely the absolute only reason I'm not tryna make time for your ass at the drop of a dime. I'm not a bad friend, because I do drop everything even when I don't want to. However, I am a person and I deserve to receive some friendship from your end just as you receive it from me. I have one very good friend that never calls because she needs me. She always calls to check on me. THAT'S a friend. Not omg!so-in-so isn't talking to me, and omg my job is blah blah blah blah...like girl wtf you want ME to do? I dont know your life...dont include me when shit gets rough if I'm not included otherwise. You dont ask to meet me anywhere just to chill, you dont want to go places where I can bring the girls too. Like a real friend wants to know your kids...right? I dont know. That shit just threw me off like ooohhh you still got the number though?
MMhmmm....
Just venting but I'm sure I'm not the only one.
Mostly because I know the people who I talk about or have opinions about are people who would read my blog if I said, hey go read this.
Anyway:
I have a friend who I've known for a long time. I don't know why but it's almost like she still thinks I'm the same. And I'm not.
Let's be real, I'm not the same as I was 5 or 6 years ago because I've encountered some real shit since then. Having kids before I even had a credit score, living in my car, coming home with no electricity, making dinner for the girls and watching them eat because there wasn't enough for all 3 of us, psycho roomates who put a bid out on my head, hating ass coworkers that will call DCF on your ass just for some office drama...just some real shit that can't really be understood by most unless they've been through some similar shit. There are some things that I look at now through different eyes. Not neccessarily on a deeper level or anything dramatic like that but some shit just isn't funny or ok to me. Like popping up on my porch whenever your "in the area"
Hugging my man
Laying in my bed
Eating my food without asking
Visiting on week nights after 7pm especially if I'm not expecting you.
Call me picky but I'm very particular about my home and my schedule during the week because a bitch needs some sleep, some TLC, some family time. I don't see my family whenever I please...sometimes I have to make time for them and when I am around them, no one is invited. I want to relish on inside jokes and reminiscing with whole-hearted laughter. Not awkward catch-ups at my dinner table in front of my kids and my guy...we cant have girl talk HERE. The hell? I'd much rather you call me for those sorts of conversations.
And often times, I feel as though I'm the friend no one calls until all their other friends have dropped them. Don't do me like that. That is most definitely the absolute only reason I'm not tryna make time for your ass at the drop of a dime. I'm not a bad friend, because I do drop everything even when I don't want to. However, I am a person and I deserve to receive some friendship from your end just as you receive it from me. I have one very good friend that never calls because she needs me. She always calls to check on me. THAT'S a friend. Not omg!so-in-so isn't talking to me, and omg my job is blah blah blah blah...like girl wtf you want ME to do? I dont know your life...dont include me when shit gets rough if I'm not included otherwise. You dont ask to meet me anywhere just to chill, you dont want to go places where I can bring the girls too. Like a real friend wants to know your kids...right? I dont know. That shit just threw me off like ooohhh you still got the number though?
MMhmmm....
Just venting but I'm sure I'm not the only one.
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