so this past week i've gotten a bunch of emails about being on academic probation.i told this to some ppl who iguess were frends of some sort and they totally gave me the "ha!i told u so" thing and i was like ok...fair enough,watever...but later, as i was wiping stank diarrhea from tina's bum, i was thinkin and i realized that wat they sed was some bull shit. yes i was failiing like 2 classes and probly wont pass another one of them but i'm trying and thats all i can do.they dont have children,work,or go to skool and theyre obsessed with "loving" dudes...which is perfectly normal for an 18 yr old but the minute i slip up,theyre quick to say...see wat sex befor marriage does to ya?
i dont mean to attack anyone really but like honestly,im lazy as hell,i will admit that.so i dont see wat good it would do for someone to sit there in my face and tell me that im lazy.like foreal...i think i know that! im lazy but i get the ish done wen i need to.im so sick of ppl callin me stupid or getting a lil too excited wen i dont come thru with alot of the stuff that i "signed up for" i guess.so wat, my name is not 'closed leg lucy'.i loved to love and thats wat it is.ive learned the hard way that theres a safe way to do that and thts poo on me but no need to rub it in cuz ur doin nuthin but gettin some of tht poo on ur hands.i hate being looked down on,(im sure anyone would hate tht) and i hate being disrespected.call me some names,thts fine, but dont get mad or offended wen u drop the ball and i super monster truck ur behind in some good ol mississippi name callin,ok?i work very hard to be broke.im goin to skool,i stopped smoking completely like i dont even chill with anybody i used to chill with bcuz they smoke and i kno id be tempted.
i stopped excessively shopping with money i ddnt have,im not messin with the whole male population of jax,i dont go out to "super freaky flaptastic booty fridays" at all these "dance" clubs,wtf more could anyone in their right mind ask of me?like damn yo,im 18 doin stuff u still cant do at [insert age here]!get off my nuts!and on top of all tht,i look frikin awesome,my kids look awesome, im not in debt to anybody [except bright futures now tht i dropped a class lol] but the point is,im doin me and thts all i could ever ask for in my circumstance so get with the program lil beeybay!2010,do u!oohhkkaayyyy?haha
deena you are the strongest person i know. and i mean that shit. what you've gone through would make most people on this planet crumble baby. you are built from the shit that survivors are built from. never forget that. Eff a hater yo. what are they doin for you? nada. zilch. gotta learn to let slick comments roll off your back and just keep workin to prove them wrong, or better yet prove your self right! every body messes up along the way, some more than others. that ain't what's important. through life, the most important thing is to do right by those who love you, and never give up on your self. the plan can change, the destination of your goals and dreams can change, but as long as you dont lose sight of who you are. you are cool! oh yeah, and also stayin' off the pole. yeah, that is definitely some important shit right there. lol. stay OFF the pole. just keep trying boo boo. push yourself! and know that bill gates dropped out of college and look at his ass. hell look at me. lmao. well, yeah, look at me!! your big sis is happy with herself and with her life and i'm always smilin and laughin and having a good time. just keep a positive attitude and you'll be just fine. love you so much! kiss the girls for me!!
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