back on the ball...i guess...well,somewhat...

today i have to be to work a lil earlier because its early release Wednesday :(
while i was typing my blog yesterday,i was waondering why i ddnt blog more often and tried to figure out where i would have time in my day to sit and blog about watever was floating around in my brain and i have a ton of free time that i never knew i had.so im going to use today and tomoro to get organized and focus on using my time as bst as i can to get back on track with school and work.like i ddnt get in to work until like 3 yesterday and i dont know how so im buying a decent planner today and using it.mmhmm...
and ive been tryin to withdraw from a class but i cant becuz i have to set up a stinkin appointment with ACE and ive been sooo far behind in skool.like wen i made my school sch i thinki was in this "YES!i graduated on time,im goin to unf...homework?i can knock that out at work or in between classes cuz im the shit and i can do anything!" state of mind...but i had forgotten about how i kinda skated by at parker and had super nice teachers tht wouldnt fail a sr so theres a possibility that i ddnt all the way deserve tht diploma bcuz i was lazy all year until the "make up work/grade recovery" thing came around.aaannnd i ddnt get into unf right away either.i had to wait a semester to bring my gpa up.so i was giving myself too much credit and setting myself up for complete stress and exhaustion and thats exactly wat i got.sometimes i get the big head and sometimes i dress some things up to make them seem a lil better than wat they really are.or i leave out the stuff that makes my "great thung" not so great.and im so good at doin it,evn i forget wats really goin on foreal sometimes lol.so my biggest thing i need to work on is being honest with myself and knowing whats too much for me.instead of trying to show off and do EVERYTHING,i need to fall back and pace myself according to my learning/work habits...