I refuse to entertain your bs,sir

so lately i havent been blogging much...i tried the video blog thing but i got frustrated with the fact that i tend to say alot of shit that i dont want the whole internet to see lol.but alot has been goin on lately...ive realized that teaching may be what i love to do but it wont pay the bills and i cant promise tht i wont hit somebody else's child lol.my job has been draining me of all of my energy.these children are...a handfull.ive never wanted to look at a child and say "eff this" as much i have lately.ive been looking into other fields and the one thts stood out the most is nursing...i hate organs and bowel movements but if im geetin fat stacks for it thn ill deal with it.lol.umm....im still single...which is goin great for me actually.im so glad im over my last relationship.cuz tht ish was a mess....eevn now wen i hear from him sometimes i feel like i moved on a lil better while hes still stuck in the past a lil bit.its funny how i got dumped and moved on when normally its the other way around.i look at him sometimes and get so annoyed at how spoiled hes always been...hell i evn spoiled his ass lol.but its all good tho...ive met a few nice guys tho since then...all of them very different from one another but at the same time,they all remind me of bama in some kind of way...like if i could mush them all together into one person it would be bama.and i do feel a little sad wen i chill with ppl or smoke with ppl bcuz bamas on my mind but i have to get over tht in order to make myself happy for the right now.and i dont want to be rude but i really dont want a boy friend...im beyond that at this point.i just need someone there to make me feel awesome and thts about it.i will say tho after the whole lorne thing,im not lookin forward to getting attached to anyone anytime soon.like ive met a guy with money to blow on watever,ive met a hard working guy with like super sick style,ive met virgins,party guys,hustlers,macs,goons,preps,bums,lames,etc...u name it,ive seen it...and all of these guys were kool but i dunno wat i want so im not gonna settle with whoever says theyre feelin me.plus ,y time is limited so im not tryna waste it on broke horny nobodys lol.if i have time tho,ive beent ryna use it wisely bcuz ive been slackin in skool.good news is i havent smoked in about 2 weeks tho so...im not doin too bad.im tryna stop completely bcuz im wasting money on somethin that im better without...but unfortunately i think ive picked up another bad habit in replacement of smoking:shopping.ive bought more clothes,shoes,etc lately than i ever wanted to.maybe its a budgeting thing i ned to work on?but umm...my time is gettin short and i have to go to work but i will def finish this later tonite :)

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but umm...yea...shopping has become a problem.like ill see some socks and be like "omg!tina would love these!" and buy thm just bcuz i have the money to...or atleast i kinda do.its like i spend watever is left from my check after daycare without seperating wants from needs and my shopping is at its worst wen im mad or stressed out.maybe i should work out instead?idk...ill figure sumthin out lol.but everythings good tho.im on spring break and ive been chillin...maybe a lil too much actually lol.
today (or this evening) someone sent me a text about how my blog made thm feel like i disrespected them...just a heads up to anyone reading my blogs:this blog is not written to please the reader.any/everything i post on this site is nothing but 100% of the way im feeling about the choices im making in my life.if u r someone that i have a meaningful conversation with or have a relationship with,8 times out of 10 u have a good chance of poppin up in my blog.i do not erase,delete,or apologize because i dont feel that anyone should be "sorry" for expressing how they truly feel if its not done in a way to intentionally hurt someone.so...if ur offended in this beezy,either dont read it,or get over it.do not text or call me about it bcuz i will tell u tht i do not care and ask u wat the point of the conversation is and then politely say "ok" and leave it there.i do not entertain bs...especially since i kno tht i never mention anyones name on here with bad intentions or foul language so...if u have anything to say or complain about,do it in a comment instead of textin up my phone plz.and this is not just to [you]...its just a notice for future reference type of thing...so stick tht in ur pipe and smoke it!im out :)