Whatever, Forever

Forever is a long time. I'm a long-timer though. But WHATEVER....that's a different category, ya know? Not to get too deep, but when people think "marriage", are most of them only thinking of the forever part?...some aren't thinking about anything at all lmao but how many people think about the whatever...like whatever happens, whatever you do, whatever we go through...if this person changes drastically, can I love them through that? Will I be compatible with this new set of boundaries or preferences or hell....what if I'm the one who changes? Will I be accepted or judged, or even loved the same way?

Sounds scary but that's the way it can be sometimes. Sometimes it's a temporary shift of beliefs, sometimes it's an entire evolution...

Also...

"10 toes"....what does that even mean? I say it all the time but if it's something good, I'd rather be knee deep. Toes seem kinda...meh. especially mine...they're short. Someone with long toes would probably make more of a statement if they claimed to be "10 toes" about something...right?or do I have that backwards 🤔 

Like I said 

Whatever

The next poem I'm supposed to be writing is asking for a shit load of nouns....and I'm like ok, person place or thing....but is the sky a thing? Is it a place?  Ionno...it's had me kinda stumped cuz I wanna use "sky"  but like, in what context...as a place or as a thing 🤔 

Like I said 

Whatever

I want friends but I'm always too drained to nurture those friendships. That's depressing, but im not depressed. It's hard to let my friends down...makes them not wanna invite me anywhere again and I get it but damn...wompty womp. I'm OK solo too tho foreal so...

Like i said

Whatever

The end for today.

💚deena