Hello Internet,
Hopefully yall are well!
I'm on the fence about how I'm choosing to deliver this new life of mine but I have no one to really vent to I guess. Here is a good place...a safe place.
The hospital I'm currently at only does C-sections...which we'll call manual removal.
I want a more automated vibe...let nature route my destiny with as little human interference as possible. That's what I wish for my baby and my body.
So now I'm on the hunt for a doctor who will do right by my wishes as the carrier of life! Impossible? NO...Aggravating and nerve-wrecking...a lil bit.
It's a paranoia I seem to keep to myself. There are a few thoughts I have on my mind but I'd like to be more optimistic about my life. These days I worry quite a bit. About multiple things, really. Nothing specific to pregnancy necessarily. I could list my worries here, seeing as I have a very minimal audience but instead, just in case my Universe is reading:
1: I wish to celebrate my marital union with my family. I'd love to bring everyone together to spend time and gain memories, laughter, unity...that would make my heart overfilled with joy...fareal.
2: I wish to welcome a healthy baby into the Universe who loves me, loves themselves, and loves learning, growing, and being kind. I wish my baby to be strong, forgiving, loving, honest, and hard working... self determined, self motivated, confident.
3: I wish to be financially sound and healthy. I want my money to be lower than my top 5 stressors...even if it improves from number 2 to number 6, I'd be satisfied with that.
4: I wish to grow my creative mind beyond what it is currently. I want to improve my ability to enter my creative space when I'm happy AND stressed AND sad AND free spirited...I want to be able to control and 'tap-in' to my creative expression.
5: I wish to develop patience for people and circumstances that I don't agree with or understand. I want to value the opinions of others while maintaining an opinion of my own without feeling the need to convince others to agree with my way or without feeling they're trying to disregard my opinion.
I watched a youtube video about how to brainwash yourself overnight...I'm going to try it!
So basically, you record what you want your subconscious to believe and you play the recorded manifestations on repeat while you sleep. That's how you speak to your subconscious self....supposedly. We'll see. I've got to come up with some great phrases though...Something I can truly say is changing/growing as a result of my self brain wash.
Google is my friend!
If you try it out, let me know how it works out for you! :)
Hopefully yall are well!
I'm on the fence about how I'm choosing to deliver this new life of mine but I have no one to really vent to I guess. Here is a good place...a safe place.
The hospital I'm currently at only does C-sections...which we'll call manual removal.
I want a more automated vibe...let nature route my destiny with as little human interference as possible. That's what I wish for my baby and my body.
So now I'm on the hunt for a doctor who will do right by my wishes as the carrier of life! Impossible? NO...Aggravating and nerve-wrecking...a lil bit.
It's a paranoia I seem to keep to myself. There are a few thoughts I have on my mind but I'd like to be more optimistic about my life. These days I worry quite a bit. About multiple things, really. Nothing specific to pregnancy necessarily. I could list my worries here, seeing as I have a very minimal audience but instead, just in case my Universe is reading:
1: I wish to celebrate my marital union with my family. I'd love to bring everyone together to spend time and gain memories, laughter, unity...that would make my heart overfilled with joy...fareal.
2: I wish to welcome a healthy baby into the Universe who loves me, loves themselves, and loves learning, growing, and being kind. I wish my baby to be strong, forgiving, loving, honest, and hard working... self determined, self motivated, confident.
3: I wish to be financially sound and healthy. I want my money to be lower than my top 5 stressors...even if it improves from number 2 to number 6, I'd be satisfied with that.
4: I wish to grow my creative mind beyond what it is currently. I want to improve my ability to enter my creative space when I'm happy AND stressed AND sad AND free spirited...I want to be able to control and 'tap-in' to my creative expression.
5: I wish to develop patience for people and circumstances that I don't agree with or understand. I want to value the opinions of others while maintaining an opinion of my own without feeling the need to convince others to agree with my way or without feeling they're trying to disregard my opinion.
I watched a youtube video about how to brainwash yourself overnight...I'm going to try it!
So basically, you record what you want your subconscious to believe and you play the recorded manifestations on repeat while you sleep. That's how you speak to your subconscious self....supposedly. We'll see. I've got to come up with some great phrases though...Something I can truly say is changing/growing as a result of my self brain wash.
Google is my friend!
If you try it out, let me know how it works out for you! :)
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