Facts for Today:

Today is Friday
I got paid yesterday
I went broke yesterday
I cry every-other Thursday (pay day)
I hate my fucking job
I'm too afraid to leave my job because I highly doubt anyone will hire me soon enough
If I was a regular 21 yr old with no kids, I'd be fucking rich
I hate my parent's situation
I don't hate my parents
I hate that I had my kids so soon
I don't hate my kids
I have bills
I have 3 cans of beans
I have half a loaf of bread
My milk will be gone or expired in 3 days
I hate milk...it'll spoil before it disappears
I don't have food stamps
I wish I had Food Assistance
I'm depressed
I love my current boyfriend more than I love some of my immediate family members
I feel uncomfortable that I love my boyfriend more than some of my immediate family
My little brother is anti-social (this is not an opinion)
I love my little brother
I'm concerned about my little brother
My family is not a traditional family
My family is not a family at this point, therefore forfeiting the possibility of being considered "traditional"
My rent is past due
I pay over 700 dollars in daycare expenses per month
I pay over 8,000 dollars per year in daycare expenses
I pay 6,600 dollars in rent per year
That's fucked up, huh? (this is a question, not a fact)
I love my best friend Jessica.
My best friend is younger than me
My sister is the only sibling I would ever confide in
My sister is the only relative I would confide in
My child's dad is lazy
My child's dad is unemployed
My child's dad wants me to feel sorry for asking his unemployed self for financial assistance.
Fuck him, fucking loser. (this is an opinion)
I believe in a God.
I do not go to church
I refuse to go to church...unless for a funeral or wedding...or by force of social exception by being involved in a "family gathering" (ei. Easter, Christmas, and other man-made, money-making bullshit holidays of that sort [part of this is an opinion])
My boss is enthusiastic about healthy living.
If I could afford any type of food, I would be too.
I have a personal problem with accepting money from people who I feel are not responsible for my debts
I have a personal problem with accepting help because of the way I was parented
Sometimes in my dreams, I'm having a conversation with a witch-doctor who blesses my hands with promises that if I scratch hard enough I'll get a financial blessing that I'll never forget.
I gave her all of my money to tell me some shit like that.
I'm even broke in my dreams.
Fucked up, huh? (this is a question, not a fact)
I want to be married and happy eventually
I want to have a normal family and rub it in my parent's face out of spite.
My mom's "friend" is a slushy back-stabbing, husband snatching whore. (this is an opinion...possible fact)
The house I grew up in is cursed with misery and failure. (definitely a fact.)
I weigh 166.3 lbs
I'm 5'2
I'm overweight
I've been stocking up on carbs with plans of starving myself for a few months
I love food
My plan will never work with this mentality
I smoke
I only smoke when I'm stressed, though
I'm always stressed
Sometimes I feel like I smoke in hopes I'll get some sort of terminal cancer and then I won't have any of this fuck ass bullshit to deal with
I hate being nice to people I dislike.
I hate being nice to people who I know dislike me
I hate being nice to people because I was never taught how to be malicious, only quiet and compromising.
I hate my lifestyle
I hate my situation
I do not hate myself
When I refer to family, (ei. "Yes, my family will be able to attend your party!") I'm specifically referring to myself and my two children.
It's 11:33