this month has been...awesome! :)

alot of great things have been goin on this month...i dont even kno where to begin lol

well first,i got hired at jimmy johns sandwiches!and it was soo funny because i went to like 6 different shops on tht street and applied to all the food places or watever.so the next day wen i got a call,the guy was speakin so fast all i heard was "are u still interested?" and all i could think of was heeelllll yea!so he told me who i was training  with and i was like yes!so we got off the phone....and i had no clue who had just hired me lmfao.so i thot i got a job at the smoothie place cuz i only heard the word "cafe" so i was like omg!i got hired at a smoothie place...15 minutes later i was like well u kno...i honestly dnt have a clue who hired me.i jus kno its not the fish taco place cuz their name doesnt have cafe at the end lol.so then the next day i still had no clue who had hired me lmao.so my mom came up with the idea to call all the places and ask for the guy training me and then ask a question to play it off.so i called like 6 different stores and i was like...damn.i hope its not the sammich place...."hi may i speak to [guys name who was supposed to train me]?" and sure enough...tht was it haha.dont get me wrong...i wanted the job.but i just knew deep down inside i wouldnt be the sandwich maker lol.and if ur not a sammich maker,ur a clean up person.and i really wasnt feelin tht at all but it was too late cuz i needed the job lol.on my first day tht i went in,they put me on the sammich line and i had to wrap and label the sandwiches as they came and i was in heaven lmao.i felt like i was in a live game of DinerDash haha.and ive been there for about 3 weeks now and ive earned my jimmy johns hat,and moved my up to workin the register!and its much different than wat im used to becuz i dnt need makeup...hell i dont evn really need to bathe,no one would notice because they dont care if u smell like gucci,u better get tht sammich made,wrapped and served in under 30 sec lol.but yea...everybody there is kool tho.my new manager,steve,is like...the bomb haha.i dnt LOVE it there yet but im sure itll grow on me?and im still at FBO too so...all is well with work! :)

the only thing tht hasnt been a good side effect is my free time.like ive been tlkin to a few ppl but nothin too serious.im really not a gold digger but i refuse to tlk to someone tht has no job,mode of transportation,or any intentions to obtain either of those things.i feel like its bull for me to drive everywhere to see someone to just sit on their couch and watch sumthin i could be watchin on my own couch lol.and i understand tht not everyone can afford a car or have a car bought for them or watever and thts fine but im not drivin all the way across jax usin up my gas tht i can barely afford to waste like tht u kno.but there r a few ppl tht i really like...maybe 2.but im still waiting on someone for some reason.idk...im really not in the right environment to be worried about boys,men,watever u wanna refer to thm as lol.but yea i havnt evn had time to really do anything if it ddnt involve workin or pickin up the girls.i miss the dating scene tho.i dnt really tlk much at my job cuz i dnt kno thm well enough to join in on jokes u kno so i dnt have any contact like in person with anyone my age.textin can only get u so far...and from the looks of it,its not nearly far enough u kno lol.

but thanks to skype and ooVoo ive been gettin back on track with catchin up with friends.and i love it!my mom and my dad were trippin cuz i bought a new web cam but ive been workin my ass off and it was only 20 bucks tht i wouldve blown elsewhere lol.the girls arent in daycare so i dont need to bust my butt to be broke a week later.might as well treat myself,its MY money tht i worked for.hell i wouldve spent tht on food in the long run anyway lol.

speakin of food...last month i went thru the whole process of tryna get foodstamps and cash assisstance and everything but i got denied and no one will tell me why!and i was like look lady,jus forget it.and now my parents are pissed but they dnt understand tht like wen u go up to a place tht involves gettin gov money,they dont care wat ur delima is because theres always someones story whos more tragic than the next and theres always someone tryna get over on thm so they dont care tht my kids got kicked out of daycare bcuz the other 2million ppl on the list waiting for daycare assistance have the same problem.like i went up there and told thm wat happened and i was like u kno my kids got kicked out of daycare,my job closed for the summer,i dont have much...the lady was lookin at me like no shxt sherlock.why the hell else would u be here?lmao and my smile and great ppl skills got me absolutely nowhere.and or some reason my mom was convinced i need the kids n daycare durin the day but...why?i work night shifts and weekends,both of those times,the daycare is closed so wtf?lol.i figured id be saving alot more of my check if they stayed home with me all day,and i can pay a sitter to watch by the hr or free.yes,theyre missin out on organized instruction but i have a bunch of workbooks from wen i was little tht i never used.and ive been around kids long enough to kno how to be patient and teach them so we've been exploring our artistic side.it suks tht the system is hard as hell to get into.i was sooo close...and now i have to start all over again to try and get some benefits.its so stressful,it makes u wonder like whytf am i evn tryin?lol its all good tho.

sooo since i ddnt have a video blog,i figured id do a song of the month.and thanks to my sister,i think i found it lol.