ehn...so ive been busy...

well right now it is about 3 in the morning and as much as ive been complaining about being tired all of the time,i cannot go to sleep.sooo i decided to blow the dust offo f this blogspot and get to tappin on my keyboard ^_^

i got my first paycheck a few days ago...wen i worked at the oil shop,i got paid out of the register so i ddnt really consider it a "pay check" exactly lol.it wasnt much but i cant really complain too much i guess.i work at an elementary skool with 5th graders and im starting to realize that i do not want to be a 5th grade teacher unless there are no other options for me as a teacher.these kids are crazy.they have a hard time comprehending the words "stop","sit","hush",and "no!" which sucks big ones cuz those are the only things tht i find myself saying to them.and i thot it was because i was so short and maybe they thot i was their equal because we were the same height but even when i wore heels and dressed "professional" they still were disrespectful and ungrateful of my presence.so i decided to be nicer instead of being a cranky bitch for a change so i went to the library yesterday and checked out maybe 25 books for them because theyre always complaining that they never have homework.i get to the skool,show them the books and they flipped!it was so rewarding!.i had this sudden wave of authority.it was like a butt load of dogs bowing down at the feet of tht dog pound guy with one piece of steak, praying that they'll get first dibs lmao.it was gold!i was like oh heeellllll yeeaahhhh.now whos wearin the pants u little brats??respect my gangsta! haha.so anyway,i got the books,they loved them, and they love me!or atleast they did for tht short 30 minutes of silent reading.mostly because they ddnt have to read about the anatomy of a spider or the many dinosaurs who once roamed the earth in their science books lol i dont know how long i can put up with these kids but i do know tht theyre easily satisfied with a piece of gum and a chapter book lol

as far as skool for me goes,everythings good.i turned inmy first paper on wed and took my first test in my math class last thurs....
THIS JUST IN:I JUST HAD A BRAIN SPLURGE!
i love my privilage to drive or watever but everytime i drive i get pissed off because some idiot "forgets" to use the damn blinker and here i am slammin on my breaks while they ease their way around a corner like tht turn onto tiny apple st doesnt affect everybody behind thm.and im just like wtf dude!how is it tht i can click my blinker on wen im turning a corner but u cant???orrrr i hate wen ppl merge in front of me and dont use their blinker!its not like theyre unaware of themselves changing lanes or merging or watever.if U kno ur changing lanes then mother effer,let ME know too!lol...or no...i hatttee wen people have like one breaklight/blinker out and they always wanna turn in the direction of the blinker tht doesnt work!maybe theres some kind of an undergoround anti-blinker/break light/fuck the police club or sumthin?lol.watever it is,this fad needs to fade quickly!
but anyy way lorne and i are doin good.we're workin on this "abstinence" thing i guess lol.and even tho some may think im a little late for tht,im doin it dammit lol.hmmm wat else?
oh!the girls are doin good too.i got christina this rolling dora book bag tht she calls her "stroller" lmao and she puts her doll (who she named bilanca [bee-lon-kuh]) in there to go to sleep lol.
we've been eating together for breakfast and dinner as a mini family (me,lizzy,tina) bcuz i want thm to grow up with strong family values and im learning from my parents' mistakes.like wen i was growin up,we ate dinner wherever in the house and went our separate ways and we never ate breakfast unless it was fcat week.and its the little things like spending maybe 10 minutes at the table with ur family tht really count because tht could be the only time tht u really get to bond.so thts wat im doing now.i ask them how skool was and wat they learned etc...or in the mornings we talk about dreams and what the moon told tina this morning...stuff like tht.and it was hard at first to sit with no tv,texting,phone,or computer and ust eat and talk but christina is a very bright 3 yr old and we talk about some deep shit lol.like why the windows fog up in the morning wen i cut on the air conditioner and why dogs knees are backwards and how many words we can think of tht start with the letter C...like we talk about some other level type ish.lol.
but yea...thts about it really :)