Retro

 Recently, I've dabbled in the deep, dark hole of astrology. 

Quite the aggravation, if you ask me. To be mindful is one thing, but to be flooded with Geminis do this, and that, and this, and that....like damn, everybody isn't supposed to be privy to our nuances so freely. Ruining the mysterious vibe...but, I can't deny the stereotypes are accurate for myself and then of course, I always look into the signs of people I know well enough to cross-check if their mannerisms match their horoscope. So far, it's been a great way to include non-bias confirmation without atually considering someone else's opinion or perspective lmao

Anyway, I think I'm about to experience the most insane transition of my life. Of my life, not of all time...chill lmao

But really, never been this sad and openly creative in my life. I feel like I need a space to pour my soul out, just the parts that are overflowing the pot, turning brown and crispy on the eye of this stove we refer to as life.

I know this is not the place. I know my friends are not the place...i just dont know.

I know I'm my best friend in this but ionno. For once, I'm afraid to jump. I'm afraid to fuck up the lives of everyone around me so that I can feel at peace. That's crazy...

Meet me at the crossroads head ahhh...

I guess I'll just have to trust in my destiny and be confident that what is meant for me, will be and however I get there, I'm equipped to survive and thrive.

I gotta believe fr. Usually works but my weapon of faith is uhh..a lil rusty lol I havent had to spiritually hibernate in a lifetime...but here I go. I've been a meaty caterpillar long enough I suppose. 

Dayumn...I hate this part but I love it when I make it through.

Hate this part...I'll miss my pookie. I gotta create peace in my world, though. 

Create.

Create.

Create.

Peace.

Peace.

peace.

Create Peace Deena.

Fuck.

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