Hello! If you're still subscribed and reading, you a real one!lol
Last year, around November, I decided to start my YouTube channel and really just...do that shit. And here I am, 7 months later, 22 subscribers to The Glow Up Vlog! Super exciting stuff! I've been diving so deep into my creative capabilities, I neglected my first and second loves, drawing and writing. My daughters got me a sketch book for my 28th birthday last week so I made it a point to draw one sketch per week or work on filling a page in with characterized thoughts, ideas, feelings, whatever. So far, I've done a cute sketch that I'm proud of. It's me at age 30.
My birthday was May 29th (Gemini season!!whatever the fuck that even means lmao) and anyone who asked me what I wanted for my birthday got the same answer, "Get me a good book to read". So far, only my mom seemed interested in that idea but I'm not surprised. I like her taste in reading so I'm excited to see what she picks. The last book she suggested, I read about a month ago. It's called The Little Prince and this piece of literature changed my life's perspective in the most beautiful way, as a good book should.
Along with reading more, I'd also love to write more often. I stopped writing for a while back in August of 2018. I had a rough patch in my life that made me question my self identity and I had nothing positive to write. All of my thoughts were things that I wanted to forget about or they were filled with anger. I didn't want to vent them out on paper, the internet, or even in my own head. I just wanted to create newer, more powerful, happier thoughts that would fill my spirit with "The Vibe". So that's what I did...and months later I gave birth to my YouTube channel "The Glow Up Vlog". I got my body in shape, my mind at ease, my spirit stronger, my love for the people in my life grew deeper. I really took a step back and took responsibility for the friends I had, the circumstances I was in or wanted to be in, my parenting, my life, my responsibilities as a wife, a sister, a daughter...allllldat.
I truly encourage you to do the same thing. You have to trust the process and be willing to let go of some relationships that may have bad qualities which outweigh the good. The end goal is to be happy when you wake up, happy when you go to sleep, at peace when someone tries you, strong when someone questions you, confident when you have to represent yourself to others.
I have some growing to do, I'm not the guru of self love...a bitch still got fears and insecurities...and possibly wants for bigger titties or whatever...but time will help me become full in satisfaction with who I am meant to be and what I have to offer to the world...(which I pray is more substantial than my future naturally grown big titties lmao) I don't literally kneel at my bed and pray to the lord for more ample breast BUT I do look at myself and say "Damn! Yo titties looking big bitch! AAAOOOOWWWW!" and so far, it's working. There's your proof.
Manifesting works if you truly believe what you want belongs to you, and you are working towards/deserving of your dream, it will be. I manifest other things...like being secure in my marriage, symbiotic friendships, lucrative creative outlets, a keen eye for fashion, a strong relationship with my children and my parents, an open heart with a wise spirit...just to name a few.
What are some things you'd like to see become your truth?
xoxo,
deena
Last year, around November, I decided to start my YouTube channel and really just...do that shit. And here I am, 7 months later, 22 subscribers to The Glow Up Vlog! Super exciting stuff! I've been diving so deep into my creative capabilities, I neglected my first and second loves, drawing and writing. My daughters got me a sketch book for my 28th birthday last week so I made it a point to draw one sketch per week or work on filling a page in with characterized thoughts, ideas, feelings, whatever. So far, I've done a cute sketch that I'm proud of. It's me at age 30.
My birthday was May 29th (Gemini season!!whatever the fuck that even means lmao) and anyone who asked me what I wanted for my birthday got the same answer, "Get me a good book to read". So far, only my mom seemed interested in that idea but I'm not surprised. I like her taste in reading so I'm excited to see what she picks. The last book she suggested, I read about a month ago. It's called The Little Prince and this piece of literature changed my life's perspective in the most beautiful way, as a good book should.
Along with reading more, I'd also love to write more often. I stopped writing for a while back in August of 2018. I had a rough patch in my life that made me question my self identity and I had nothing positive to write. All of my thoughts were things that I wanted to forget about or they were filled with anger. I didn't want to vent them out on paper, the internet, or even in my own head. I just wanted to create newer, more powerful, happier thoughts that would fill my spirit with "The Vibe". So that's what I did...and months later I gave birth to my YouTube channel "The Glow Up Vlog". I got my body in shape, my mind at ease, my spirit stronger, my love for the people in my life grew deeper. I really took a step back and took responsibility for the friends I had, the circumstances I was in or wanted to be in, my parenting, my life, my responsibilities as a wife, a sister, a daughter...allllldat.
I truly encourage you to do the same thing. You have to trust the process and be willing to let go of some relationships that may have bad qualities which outweigh the good. The end goal is to be happy when you wake up, happy when you go to sleep, at peace when someone tries you, strong when someone questions you, confident when you have to represent yourself to others.
I have some growing to do, I'm not the guru of self love...a bitch still got fears and insecurities...and possibly wants for bigger titties or whatever...but time will help me become full in satisfaction with who I am meant to be and what I have to offer to the world...(which I pray is more substantial than my future naturally grown big titties lmao) I don't literally kneel at my bed and pray to the lord for more ample breast BUT I do look at myself and say "Damn! Yo titties looking big bitch! AAAOOOOWWWW!" and so far, it's working. There's your proof.
Manifesting works if you truly believe what you want belongs to you, and you are working towards/deserving of your dream, it will be. I manifest other things...like being secure in my marriage, symbiotic friendships, lucrative creative outlets, a keen eye for fashion, a strong relationship with my children and my parents, an open heart with a wise spirit...just to name a few.
What are some things you'd like to see become your truth?
xoxo,
deena
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