finally graduated!!

i was scannin through one of my old journals from lke 8th/9th grade and ive changed so much over the years.its the end of my sr year at parker, i have 2 kids, im graduating, i have the best friends and support group that anyone could ever ask for...im so proud of myself.i haven't written in my blog about something serious in about a yr maybe cuz ive been kinda busy but i cant sleep and tv is boring me lol.
so earlier i was textin aundra and i realized that hes one of the greatest people that ive ever met.hes helped me through high school and without him and my lovely sister Elizabeth i wouldve killed somebody or dropped out.
i'll be 18 in 5 days and i kno tht once the 29th is over, my life will change dramatically...but whats my life without extreme dramatic life changes?haha.
i graduate in about a week and i still cant believe i did it. icant believe im graduating on time with 2 kids, 2 baby daddys,AP/Honors courses under my belt,and all of my hair and sanity.i cant believe i did it.i cant FREAKIN BELIEVE IT!im crying right now!(really,i am).actually seeing those words that im proud of myself made it all actually hit me that i proved everyone wrong that ever doubted me. yes,im a recovering sex addict but dammit im an educated one!haha.
my gosh!HOW THE HELL DID I PULL THIS SHIT OFF??
i'm a beast.im officially a mother fuckin BEAST!and anybody who dares disagree,i dare you to go through one half of ur highschool experience pregnant, and the other half of it raisin 2 kids and still have time for friends,love,laughs, prom, grad bash, softball, and mrs. abbouds pointless parenting class with an optomistic mind and a pretty white smile on your face.i dare you to do wat ive done and look as good as i did doin that shit.
and you kno wat...im feelin a ll bold right now so:
fuck wayne,kanye,tyra,and anybody else who thinks they've accomplished some real shit cuz i,Deena,am officially the shit of 2009.and yes, im a lil more cocky than usual right now but dammit,i deserve it. I FUCKIN LOVE MYSELF!and even though it took a crapload of my energy to realize how much i feel myself,it was totally worth it!
i love my sister LIZZ!i love my UNCLE MARK!CHRISSY!LIZZY!hell,i even love my screwy ass parents who helped mold the goon i am today! i love everyone on the lady braves softball team!yep all of yall!even coach cole,coach jursa,and good ol Badger boo!!lmao.UGH!ima miss all of you!and our "winning streaks" lol.
my trig nigs:mel,denise and gomeshia!!and dustin lol
ALSOBROOK'S EASY BEHIND CLASS!lol.with lauren,tarik,brianna,maggie,monkesha,shannon,ariel!
MR.E'S HARD ASS ELECTIVE HAHA
shanade,dani boo,crystal!!
all my prego ladies/teen mommies,i wish you the best of luck :]
i know that each and every one of you can finish schol and become successfl young women!!
all my random frenz that i dont remember meeting but we're close now!
moody booty!melissa studt!leighsha!!kali!catlyn!ms vonleue!
ALL THE DIVAS IN GUIDANCE!lol.jordan,ms bond...the damn FCAT!haha.
and of course raymizzle,courtney,amanda aka thug nasty,mel,katherine,all my paxon buddies!
and of course i have to thank Ms Linda Browner for watchin my girls while i got it done and shut it down sonnn!!!! haha
omg!!i did it!!i should have a movie with the shit i went thru...
and i wanna thank my sister lizz again for training me to be a fuckin gangsta!!!
and my big brother mike!!
i love yooouuu all
UGH!fuck trina too!cuz im the baddest!haha.wuuh wuuh!!
[tht was lame but watever!!lol]
i love myselff!!!
oh and ms ramsey,ms athena,mark...love u guys too!! :] and courtneyy!!
i love ur fuzzy dam buildin ahh!!lol.

and mojo jayjay!and bama!and luther and his famm and tyriek!!!

i love all of u silly geese!haha

OMG,WORLD!HOW THE FUCK DID I DO IT??
I DID IT!I DID IT!
i friggin love myself!!